Dear Panama, We have been together for over 2 months now and I have come to realize we can’t do this anymore. I am leaving you. Don’t think this has anything to do with you. Given different circumstances, I am sure we would have been great together. You have such beauty and your History is captivating. I will never regret the times we spent together cramming far to many people on a bus or taxi, or in the various coffee shops you took me to. Your people are beautiful and I have taken a piece of them to hold in my heart forever. I love all the color you have in your life and we can all learn a little from you to apply to all our lives.
I know we went through some difficult times, but those will soon be forgotten and I will look fondly upon the time we had. At first I was a little guarded because I was scared of what you were going to show me and where you were going to take me. You definitely do things differently than what I am used to, but I trust you now. I was intimidated by your beauty and yet so undeniably enthralled in it at the same time. I love your smile and how beautiful you sound when you speak. I wish so badly we could have gotten to know each other better. Thank you for opening up to me letting me see your heart, for letting me capture your beauty but not mask the pain that is still here. A lot of work still needs to be done, and unfortunately, I can’t help you anymore. You will be in my prayers and I know you will figure things out. You are small and yet so strong. Something so much bigger than the both of us brought us together for this time and for that I am so thankful. I learned so much from you. I will share your beauty with those I know, you will be in their prayers as well.
Don’t worry about me. I will be fine. I am going to spend some time with my friend Africa while I figure things out. She has gone through a lot and I am going to see if maybe she needs my help for a bit. As we both know though, my heart is with Canada and I will inevitably go back. I hope we can still be friends and I expect updates on how you are. Take care of yourself. I will miss you.
Love,
Brittany.
